Wednesday, June 25, 2014
Thursday, May 8, 2014
Friday, February 14, 2014
Where does the time go? I had really good intentions to blog more regularly…. and you all see how far the "good intentions" have gotten me.
Busy as it is, life is good here.
It's actually a lot more settled down now that the holidays are through and we've gotten through the new year.
Thanks to the so-far-below-freezing-no-one-should-be-outside temperatures, we've spent more time than usual at home, which has been nice. I am working on more crafts than ever (because I have the time at home) and am beginning to bring the kids in on as many as I can. In the last months they've made bath bombs, embroidery, scrabble tile signs, paper beads, crocheting and more. It's so much fun to work on crafts together. They really get into it, and they want very badly to do well.
In general the family is doing well, I hate to even say this but we've even been virus free for over a month!! No colds or anything. Again, I think this is due to the fact that we've been out and about so much less, but whatever the reason we will enjoy it while we can.
Treyton is currently in basketball (once a week) and loving it. No big surprise there. He loves any and all sports, and basketball happens to be one of his favorites. He is really looking forward to playing during the high school basketball game this coming up Friday (which is now, today).
He has lost like a million teeth now, for those of you that are technical, I think the actual number is 6 but either way, a lot is a lot. He loves pulling his teeth, which is a good thing, because it's a job that while I don't hate it, I'm comfortable passing it by.
School is going well. It continues to take a lot of effort on his part, but when he is trying, he does very very well. He is super smart and has such an "intellectual" way of looking at things. My favorite part of doing school with Treyton is the discussion. He always asks insightful questions and is an extremely curious child which caries over into everything he does. Even if it's a commercial on TV, if he doesn't get it, he wants to and will ask lots of questions until he understands.
A thorough thinker, he keeps us on the straight and narrow and focused on the things that matter.
Alexa had her dance recital last week. I'll be honest, I shed a tear or two when she was out on that stage, dancing her little heart out. She is such a passionate little creature and it all shows whenever you turn the music on. I love that about her.
She loves piano and reading and doing tie blankets, which her Aunt Toni helped her start doing. She is very crafty and could work on crafts almost as much as I do, if I let her. Though her weakness is cleanliness and organization, so working with her takes a little more patience on my part. She's the kind of crafter who just gets in and gets going and doesn't care where she sets something down….. I on the other hand work with everything having it's place…. we are good for each other.
She is doing very well in school. I am keeping her in her current reading program, although she really doesn't need it. She is such an intuitive reader that she just catches on to most new words she comes in contact with. She reads much like she lives her life, generally within the boundary of the rules, but having no real idea or concern for what the rules actually are. :)
A carefree soul, she is always making us laugh and slow down to appreciate the smaller things.
Audrey continues to do speech therapy at the school two times a week. Because of the weather and a scheduled day off, It had been 2 weeks between visits with her speech pathologists, when he finally did see her, he was amazed!! He can't believe how quickly Audrey is flying through the program, though he says it's not surprise considering the amount of time she is able to commit to it. She is a very unique 3 year old, we hear that ALL the time. She is very smart and wise and although she can't communicate it, she does know what's going on, and hardly misses anything.
I have started doing more structured preschool with her (Before Five in a Row, namely) and she is LOVING it!! She already know 4 or 5 colors, and can count to 10 fairly well, so we are adding to all of that obviously and reading lots of stories. This week we are also learning about hibernation. Her favorite part is the crafts, which I'm trying to incorporate daily.
A determined should she has taught us so much about character building and how the easy-way is most certainly not always the best way.
Titus, Titus, Titus…. what can I say? He's hit the age of 50% adorable, 50% trouble :) He is a go-getter. Praise God he is a good napper, and is still napping twice a day, and sleeping 12 hours at night, so we get some break-time, because that kid has some energy. He's not naughty by any means. In fact, for his age, I think he listens rather well. He's just in to everything and wants to be a part of anything and wants to eat constantly!!!
He is soooo funny, and is quite the little character. He loves hiding under blankets and walking around, which his parents find oddly hilarious. He loves peek-a-boo and music. He's a cute little dancer and when he really wants food he will do squats - it's adorable!!
He does not like loud vibrating noises (such as a whoopee cushion, or loud engines). He does love our inflatable house thingy and can spend large chunks of time just letting his older siblings bounce him around in it.
He is not speaking much, which considering our past experiences, I am trying very hard not to be concerned about. Truth is, he is a boy and the 4th child, it's okay that he's not saying a lot. (or at least that's what I'm trying to convince myself). He at one point said "mama" but he doesn't really say that anymore. He says "DaDa" "Tay-ta" (Treyton) and "yes" ---- i know how weird is that? Especially considering typically, developmentally the /y/ sound does not show up until 2 1/2. (Sad that I know that….. anyway…..)
He is an adventurous little soul that keeps us on our toes and helps us to remember that we're not as young as we once were.
Friday, January 31, 2014
(DISCLAIMER: Below is an extremely raw and real story about the final weeks of my uncle's life, if this makes you uncomfortable, I would ask that you not read it, I'm writing this, for me and for my family, these are moments I will never forget, nor do I want to forget because they changed me, and God is using these moments in a big way in my life. However, I understand it may not be for everyone to read)
Over the past several weeks, my uncle, who I am very close with began to face the downhill part of his two-year battle with lung cancer. Two weeks ago I received a phone call on Sunday morning, telling me to come to Baraboo to see him, for probably the last time. He was in the hospital with pneumonia, and while the day before I had heard he was doing really well and expected to come home in the next couple of days, he had taken a sudden turn for the worse over night and they weren't really sure what to expect.
I got there at about 10 in the morning. I walked in, and while he acknowledged my presence and told me he was glad I came, there was very little acknowledgement on his part throughout the day. He was tired and struggling.
We had found out that morning, that despite the third round of chemo that he was currently on, the tumor had grown and was now wrapped around some blood vessels. His hemoglobin had dropped two points over night, and they were not sure if the vessels had been compromised or not.
That day our entire family sat by his side as we watched him struggling to maintain his oxygen levels. He was scared and anxious. They gave him some medication to help, but we could tell he wasn't ready. I decided that I would stay the night that night with him while he was in the hospital so that he wasn't alone. I live two-and-a-half hours away and I wasn't willing to leave and drive home, knowing how sick he was.
The nurses explained to me that often times patients would get worse during the night. But he didn't - he actually started doing better. At about 3am he had even sat up on the side of the bed and we got his blood ox up to 99!! Uncle T and I both started checking wires…. we were sure the machine was malfunctioning!! :)
The next morning social workers, doctors and nurses were coming in as we started to discuss the possibility of hospice. Todd was not willing to take the steps towards hospice quiet yet. He knew he wasn't ready to go home to my mom's house (he was still not able to get out of bed or take care of his own basic needs), but he wasn't ready to stop fighting either.
The hardest part for Todd during all of this was his inability to communicate easily. Around Thanksgiving he had lost his voice, most likely from the tumor pressing on a nerve, and he was difficult to understand without an oxygen mask on his face.
It was decided that he would go to a nursing home under rehabilitation. With the hope that they would help him get stronger and at least get out of bed on his own, and then he would go back home. He got moved in on Tuesday. He worked really hard at his rehab and was doing better. Though he didn't feel like he would be ready to go home in the two-weeks time they were hoping for, with help he was getting out of bed and eating in the cafeteria with other patients. During the next couple of days, Todd became more at peace with his diagnosis and, I think began to realize there was not anything, medically that could be done for him.
He had made his peace.
My mom and older sister, Skye had gone to visit Uncle T on Saturday morning. They found him sitting up in his wheel chair with his feet propped up on the side of his hospital bed making a list of things he wanted them to pull out of his house before the estate sale.
He was in good spirits and visited with them for a while before they left to go work on the house.
Sunday morning, my mom was at home and had tried to call Todd several times to let him know she was probably not going to visit that morning. She had been visiting him every day for the last two weeks, and with the cold weather she had wanted to stay home that day. Todd had not answered her several phone calls. I was on the phone with her at 12:30 when she got another call from a number she didn't know. I said "It's probably Todd calling you back, answer it and call me when you can."
She called back minutes later and said "It was the nursing home, they think Todd is dying and wanted to know if I wanted them to send him to the hospital. I'm walking out the door now, I'll call you when I know more. Call your sisters for me."
I hung up and called my sisters.
I called Tim who was dropping Treyton off at basketball. He said he would come and pick up the other kids so I could head out.
I got to Baraboo around 3:30.
I walked into Todd's room…. it was very calm and peaceful. I came around his bed, kissed him and told him I was there, and that I loved him. He opened his eyes and told me he loved me too.
It was my mom, my step-dad, Luke, and my sister, Skye.
Todd was at the nursing home, they had decided not to send him to the hospital, because there was nothing the hospital could do for him as far as actually healing/helping him. We were in the stages of making him a comfortable as we could.
Todd's blood oxygen was now in the 70s and we could not really get it to come up. His body was going to begin to shut down. When my mom had gotten there Todd was pretty anxious, but mostly because he felt like he couldn't breath. He was tossing and turning and unable to get comfortable. They gave him some medication and he was now calm, and resting.
My mom was able to talk with him when she had first gotten to his room and asked him if he needed anything. He said "no", she asked him if he was scared he said "no", she asked him if he wanted her to leave him alone he said "yes". She stood up from sitting on the said of his bed. He said "hey" she looked back at him and he said "I love you, good night."
He was finally at peace.
He rested all throughout the day.
At one point, around 7 at night, Todd had "sat up" and opened his eyes, he was slightly agitated at which point they gave him more medication. We each got a chance in those few brief moments to tell him we were there and that we loved him. He acknowledged each of us.
After this, he didn't respond as much, though he would still move occasionally to get more comfortable.
The nurse had told us that he could live days like this. My sister and I decided to stay that night to give my mom a break, because we would have to be going home on Monday. My mom left the hospital around 10. My mom kissed him and said her goodbyes.
My sister and I cuddled up on a cot next to Todd's bed and rested when we could. The nurses and aids came in every couple of hours to turn him and give him more medication.
The night nurses were not well received by my older, very protective sister and the aids were attempting to handle Todd more than she was comfortable with. So after 1am, Skye was sitting next to Todd watching him (and anyone else who may have attempted to enter his domain) very carefully. I was laying on the cot. We were watching him breath.
He was very peaceful. Though looking back, there had been a change in the last couple of hours.
At 1am when the nurse came in to give him medication. His respiration was at 20 a minute. By 1:30 he was at about 13 respirations per minute. At about 1:45 he had started breathing more sporadically, before long I told Skye "we should call mom" She agreed but said, lets count for a minute and see where he's at.
We started counting. It took 15 seconds for one breath. I said "Call Mom!!" She did.
I leaned over my uncle, kissed his head and said "We're right here, uncle, you're doing so good."
He took another breath.
Skye was talking to my step-dad.
He took another, very small breath.
And he was gone.
There was no struggling, there was no gasping. It was very peaceful.
We sat by his bed holding his hands until my mom got there about 10 minutes later.
Yesterday was his funeral.
I can't really explain to you the emotions we've all been going through. We are at peace, truly. My uncle's ugly battle with cancer and emphysema is finally over. And he is completely healed! My uncle had a very strong faith, perhaps the strongest faith I've ever seen, and we have no doubt where he is today.
We are sad, because we will miss him, but we are joyful for him.
I wrote something in honor of my uncle which I then read at the funeral. For those that know me, I do NOT speak publicly but I knew this was something I really wanted to do. I'm sure the presentation wasn't perfect (I had to read the entire thing) but I know the message was received and that's what matters:
Thursday, January 23, 2014
We live in the country.
We have lived in our home for almost 5 years and NEVER had a mouse.
A mole in the garage once or twice, but never a mouse.
Towards the end of the summer we noticed a mouse like creature in the basement window. We set traps knowing that it might want to try to come into a warm home for winter. We caught nothing.
A couple of weeks ago, on a Sunday morning Tim and the kids saw a mouse scoot across the kitchen.
We have been on the hunt since then.
Once again to no avail.
That was until this morning. Tim and I were sitting at our kitchen counter watching Harry Connick Jr. perform for Keith Urban on the computer.
I said "I thought I just saw something scoot across our floor"
Tim said "I think the mouse is dead."
"Why do you think that?"
"Because we've set all these traps and haven't caught it."
He walked over to where our (broken) vacuum cleaner was sitting and sure enough the mouse scooted out and went under the stove!! By this point I was standing on our stool, squealing.
Tim looked at me and said "I guess it's not dead."
The kids had all heard the excitement and ran into the kitchen at which point we hatched the genius plan of "catching" the mouse with our flu bowls.
I ran and got the camera, because I was sure this was something we weren't going to want to miss.
(P.S. Mommer, Treyton dedicates these videos specially to you :))
The rest is self explanatory:
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
WARNING: This may be the longest post I have ever made, I apologize for those of you who actually read this blog and are overwhelmed by the massiveness that is this post, however, it was important to me to put a little year in review together for our family and this was a perfect way to do it. It's totally understandable if you choose to not read all the way through (though I would love it if you would) :)
Life is flying us by, I mean seriously, time goes so fast and we are so busy living life I barely have time to remember life!!
I think both are needed.
So today, as we say good bye to 2013 and hello to 2014 I wanted to take the time to slow down a little bit and look back over the last year.
We have had so many great moments!!
Dad and Treyton went to their first Packer game together. Lord willing, I'm certain their will be many more to come!!
Of course, we had a lot of ups and downs this year, and moments where we felt like sticking our head in the mud…. until we realized you can get stuck that way and we learned perhaps that wasn't the best way to handle our problems.
We spent a lot of time working, playing and learning together. We are proud that our children will usually try new things at least once and with a GOOD attitude. They each love learning, in their own ways. Even Treyton who claims to hate school admits that he loves to learn, he just doesn't like the work of textbooks, he's more of a living and learning kind of guy!
Treyton spent half the year growing out his hair, like Clay Matthews, and we were both surprised and proud to see him stick with it, even with people confused him for a girl.
In Feburary we were able to spend a week with our new pup-cousin, Rustie and the kids ALL love Rustie and enjoy trying to wear her out by running around the yard and playing ball. Treyton actually went to the puppy training classes with Rustie and Aunt Toni and learned how to command and handle Rustie the right way.
Titus has changed so much this year, which is no surprise considering it was his first full year of life. He is one our easiest babies and is such a joy to have around. He's easy-going, fun and spunky all at the same time!! He is going to have no problem keeping up with his older brother and sisters.
Looking back over this year, one of the things we are most grateful for is the new level of relationship and fellowship we have experienced in our local church. We have spent many meals and fun hours together getting to know one another, sharing our lives and growing together in the Lord. We are truly blessed to be a part of such a strong, healthy and encouraging body of believers.
Audrey turned 3 this year and while it's been emotional year as her parents, we've watched her overcome, and grow in so many ways. She is currently in two speech classes, which is a gift for her and something she is very proud of!!
Easter came early this year which had us anticipating spring even sooner than normal.
We enjoyed a lovely passover meal together as a family in celebration.
In April, Tim and I enjoyed some time at the Cincinnati Homeschool Convention - this is a really encouraging time for us, and is the time we use to set our big picture plans and goals for our upcoming school year.
This year we were also THRILLED to have the opportunity to see the dead sea scrolls!!
It was awesome and something I will not soon forget!!
The end of April brought the kids recitals for the year, in both Piano and Dance. We are so proud of all the hard work they put into each of their hobbies and while Treyton doesn't always like to practice his piano he does enjoy playing and performing.
The kids always find ways to make us laugh!! They are great playmates and best friends.
Treyton, our huge sports enthusiasts also had the chance to attend his first bucks game with Dad. It was the bucks against Miami Heat.
May brought about a big change as Treyton decided to cut his hair before our family vacation - Dad heard those words and jumped right on it to get the job done :)
Our trip to San Antonio, with our extended family was probably THE highlight of the year. We had a jam-packed couple of weeks and saw so much and did so much, it was a great blessing.
Our first stop, Oklahoma, the kids finally got to meet my brother, Nick and Tim and I saw him for the first time since our wedding day!!
This trip was full of so many memories for me. It made me feel both old and grateful. I even got to see my old house…. nothing like memory lane!!
Texas ---- need I see more - lots to see and do here!
The kids and I keep trying to talk Tim into moving, but I don't see it happening any time soon.
I mean what's not to love? You got:
except for maybe the snakes
and the toe biting birds
Then again, I'm not real sure Texas could handle us ---- or if they would have us :)
Surprisingly, to me, the highlight of our trip was sea world. Eating with Shamu (the real shamu, not the stuffed shamu :)) and seeing the shows took the kids breath away!
Our next stop needs no introduction:
it was a welcomed site to visit Papa Mike and for him NOT to be in a hospital bed!
The wildlife here may not be described so much as "friendly" but definitely inspire awe!
and the scenery equally as breath taking.
But nothing makes you feel more at home than the chance to see family.
This trip had so much more, but at the risk of taking up even MORE space, I'll stop.
And as exciting as our trip was May was filled with even more - including the kids first fishing experience.
June brought our first camping trip of the year.
It felt to get out there again!!
The older kids both participated in baseball/tee-ball this year
We were blessed with some great coaches.
And finally some nice weather which the kids took full advantage of!!
And I don't think anyone will soon forget the "Milwaukee Zoo Fiasco of 2013!!" :) Where the sky's opened up and poured down on us beautiful, torrential down pours!!
Wet or not, the kids and I still had a lot of fun with Aunt Nana and Ms. Livia's family. We know that one of these years, we will have a non-dramatic experience at this zoo!!
Camping with Papa Luke and Grandma Lex at Point beach was very relaxing and we were able to enjoy the sunshine and water (even if it was a little cold)
We celebrated Dad's birthday with a new trampoline for the family. The kids have LOVED their trampoline, but mom and dad had no idea how much work it would be after it flew away on TWO separate occasions this summer…. sigh…. you live and learn, some things are worth the work, some things aren't…. the jury is still out on the trampoline.
Lexie's birthday present to dad was her big accomplishment of getting rid of her training wheels.
Our annual 4th of July Reunion with our P-Town friends was at our home this summer and we had a BLAST!!
Lexa decided to celebrate her birthday with friends at Bay Beach --- a great choice!
We started school on her birthday this year, which is the best possibly birthday present we could have given her - this girl loves school, learning, and everything it involves!!
And of course there was more camping in July!!
This year my man and I also celebrated 10 AMAZING years together as husband and wife!!! On one hand I feel so young and inexperienced, on the other hand I feel so old!!!
Our annual VBS at church was a western theme this year which was beyond fun to be a part of!!
And you wouldn't have believed it, but we blinked a Rustie grew up on us!! Once Titus was bigger than this little pup, but quicker than we knew it, Rustie became a lady!!
At the end of July on Tim and I's actual 10 year anniversary, Treyton ran in his first 1K race. It was one of my proudest moments of the summer.
Truthfully June and July were such busy months for us, we laid low for much of the month of August, which was nice. The end of the month brought Treyton's 8th birthday
He celebrated with a sports party with his closest friends.
At this time we also had my cousin, John move in with us from Louisiana. Other than one time when he was 7, at his sister's wedding, I had never met John. It has been a blessing getting to know him! And the kids loved having an older play mate around!!
Labor day brought time with family
and good food.
And let's not forget football season!!
And the start of co-op field trips!
Titus' birthday came so fast. I couldn't believe he was 1!!
Our last camping trip of the year was in Door County with Mommer and Papa and John. Probably my favorite camping spot, there is so much fun to be had there!
September also marked the opening of my Etsy shop: LovingLee Created, where I sell my handmade and crocheted items. It was been SO much fun being a part of etsy and having the chance to sell some of what I make.
I'm grateful to have my own personal model's in house :)
Treyton spent every Saturday participating in Flag Football. He really enjoyed it - I did not enjoy the early mornings in the crisp cool fall Wisconsin air, but it brought a smile to my face to see him so excited and focused.
And towards the end of the month (the 27th, actually) Alexa got her ears pierced. This was a very big moment, one that initially she wasn't sure about but now is very grateful for. We had left the decision up to her, and I'm glad we did.
Harvest party at church!!
I also participated in my first craft show, and the following week, my second craft show
Thanksgiving is always big --- and this year was no exception!
Titus got his first hair cut, which was a long time coming, and was harder than I expected to do (literally and figuratively)
We are certainly blessed!!
And while it has been surprisingly cold this December, Tim and the older kids were lucky to make it out Christmas weekend to get some sledding in.
Audrey and I enjoyed some time at home while TItus napped staying warm and cuddling on the couch!!
Such an amazing year, full of adventures, laughs, and memories as well as a few tears and tough moments. But we're blessed by every moment we had the seemingly good and bad. We are grateful to be together and to be healthy and above all that Jesus calls us His!!!