Friday, February 20, 2009

Where Can We Find Rest?

Have you ever been so tired, you couldn't hardly see straight? So drained, that you felt like you had nothing left to give?

That's where I was a few weeks ago, I was at the end of all of my energy but had a list as long as my arm, of things that needed (HAD) to get done. I was over-my-head, exhausted.

So I did what any strong Christian woman would do - I called my mom crying hysterically!! (I'm not even kidding). Praise the Lord for Moms, seriously, what would we do without them? Who else can we call when we can't even understand ourselves speak? Who listens to us without judgment or fear that we may actually do all that we say we're going to do? Our moms know us better than most people, and they STILL love us --- Mom's are great (I love you mom!)! Anyhow, that was just a bunny trail, the purpose of this post is really about what I did after I called my mom.

Talking to my mom helped, and I actually got through the rest of that day without hurting anyone!! The next day, during my quite time I began to journal my heart (probably what I should have done in the first place!) and this is what my journal read:

"Lord, I feel as though I have been going through a rough patch, okay, I know that I have been going through a rough patch! I have been so exhausted and worn out - I feel as though I have nothing left to give. Lord, help me, renew my strength."

That was all I wrote, to be honest, I didn't know what else to say, and that was as honest as I could be, and it took all the energy I had to write.

I said a simple prayer to the Lord and then I opened up my devotional and this is what I read:
"COME TO ME FOR REST AND REFRESHMENT" (yes it acutally is in big bold letters!) The journey has been to much for you, and you are bone-weary. Do not be ashamed of your exhaustion (and I really was). Instead, see it as an opportunity for Me to take charge of your life.... Your main responsibility is to remain attentive to Me, letting Me guide you through the many choices along your pathway. This sounds like an easy assignment, but it is not. Your desire to live in My Presence goes against the grain of "the world, the flesh, and the devil." Much of your weariness results from your constant battle against these opponents. However, you are on the path of my choosing, so do not give up! Hope in Me, for you will again praise Me for the help of My presence."
The Lord met with me in my most desperate moment, I didn't have a fancy prayer or a perfectly righteous day, I wasn't on my "best behaviour" (by any means) but I took the opportunity to give God my EVERYTHING - and it wasn't much - I asked Him to take it from me and give me some of Him, and He did!!

Our God is so good and so faithful, I encourage you, wherever you are at today, just give it to Him and trust Him to meet you exactly where you are at. You don't have to get everything figure out and in order before you come to Him, in fact the opposite is true - He wants you to come as you are now, in this moment, and lay it at His feet. As a humble receiver of His word and renewing power, I can tell you it is WORTH MORE THAN GOLD!

Psalm 73:26 "My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever."

Matthew 11:18 "Come to Me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest."

Isaiah 40:31 "Those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up on wings like eagles, they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not faint."

(by the way, the name of my devotional is "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young - EXCELLENT!!)


Ashley Skye said...

Thank you so much for sharing all your thoughts!! You are an amazing woman and I cannot wait to see you!

Alexis said...

I love you