On days like today I wonder why I do the things I do.
I wonder if it's worth the time and sacrifice. I wonder if it would be worth the ease of turning you over for 8 hours a day to someone else to teach you.
I know (in my head) that we're doing the right thing but I just wish there was a guarantee, a way to know that what I think is good for you, really will be in the end.
On the days like today….
Days when I don't even take a look in the mirror, except for the few minutes it takes to brush my teeth.
Days when I can't get a moments peace or a minute alone.
Days when I just want to do what I want to do, but can't.
Days when I just want to be alone.
Days when the laundry seems like a bigger deal, than it really is, and a spilled glass of milk really does make me want to cry.
…. it's on these days I must remind myself. The choice, ultimately is not about me, it's not even about you. It's about HIM and what HE has called us to.